Somewhere in the middle....

Hey Everybody.....

I have been absent from the blogging scene for a few days...mainly because every time I got on to blog, my mind would just grind to a halt and I didn't have anything to say. They call it writer's block. They are right. The reason for my writer's block is because I had so much on my mind I was unable to write about the trivial things. Most of my followers are BFC friends so you might be saying "but weight loss isn't trivial"!! You are right and it isn't but right now to me it kind of is. It is trivial because I finally went to the doctor and found that I have what is termed Bipolar Spectrum Disorder....basically it is having a little bipolar a little depression and a little anxiety all rolled into one. In other words....all of the chemicals my brain produces are wacky. Thankfully he gave me the right medication to level them out to the right amounts and I feel what I think other people would term "normal". No matter, it is still higher on my priority list right now. As many of you know I have a Bipolar child and an ADHD child so this really doesn't come as a huge surprise to me....now just to work on fine tuning my parenting and relationship skills with this new set of information tools.  Like anything else in life, this will take dedication, work and perseverance but I am committed to doing the best job I am able. It is scary finding out this information after 40 years of living with it but I figure if I have come this far with no meds, look how far I will be able to go with them!! Top of the world....here I come!!

On the BFC note, I am holding at 123 so far....even going to the cabins for vacation over the weekend. yay me! I think I am going to shoot for 118 to 120 just to see...I think I would look ok at that weight and its much easier to gain than to lose so why not try?

Today I ate:   2T Psyllium husks in 8oz water 0/1  9 F
                      3c. coffee w 1pkt stevia 1 tsp regular powdered creamer each 0/0
                      2 Alternative English Muffins w/butter and sausage patties  2/2  10 F
                      1 sugar free Jello pudding cup  0/1

For dinner I will have a protein and one more carb with whole grains


Thats all for today....have a great BFC!!!